more of the same dumb shit
I have to complain somewhere, don't I? I mean, I can't just keep it all in anymore. So, aren't you the lucky ones?
I finally got on City of Villians tonight with my SG pals. I've had minimal pain today but plenty of vertigo. So, my pc is all tricked out and the graphics rock, everything moves smoothly and it makes me fucking dizzy.
*Scream to the Heavens*
I gave up drinking, I AM NOT GIVING UP MY GAMES!!!
Jeez.
Apparently, people around me are getting worried. So far, Jason hasn't shown me any real worry and I am glad for it. If he starts to freak out, then it will be over for me. I need him to stay nice and stable.
So far, in all the bits and pieces that I've been reading, it's all fucking normal. My only real fear is that I've had some of the mini-strokes that are possible. And since I've been quiet, I'll say why here.
1st the vertigo is always to the right.
2nd my eyesight is actually getting worse in my right eye.
3rd I can't speak worth a damn. I can form a sentence in my head and getting it from my head to my mouth is a fucking nightmare.
4th the other night, when it was bad, everytime I laid on my right side, my head felt like it was bobbing (only word I can come up to describe it). I also had some numbness that night.
Right now the pain is minimal, but the sick feeling and wonky world are there. I think that the main thing stopping me from asking my Chiro to go ahead and order me the MRI, is that I'll start to cry. I can't cry in front of people. And I cry all the fucking time! Even to commercials. "The Santa Clause 2" made me all weepy today!
I did read that sometimes migraines can cause brain damage. Especially in those who have the little strokes. I'm NOT saying that's what is happening to me. But, I AM starting to think that checking it out would be a good thing to do.
The other thing that scares me (and this is sooo stupid): I don't want to lose my hair for anything! I loved it short, I'd thought of shaving it in different times of my life. Now, it's long and UBER soft. I have thick awesome hair. It started getting long out of laziness, now I'm gonna keep it going for Locks of Love (well, if they'll take dyed hair). Even then, I don't know if I'd go that short again.
I can't sleep for shit anymore. I lay there forever waiting to sleep. I read til I feel myself drifting off, turn out the light... and I stare at the time on my ceiling (I have a kick ass clock).
Gonna give it a go anyways.
I finally got on City of Villians tonight with my SG pals. I've had minimal pain today but plenty of vertigo. So, my pc is all tricked out and the graphics rock, everything moves smoothly and it makes me fucking dizzy.
*Scream to the Heavens*
I gave up drinking, I AM NOT GIVING UP MY GAMES!!!
Jeez.
Apparently, people around me are getting worried. So far, Jason hasn't shown me any real worry and I am glad for it. If he starts to freak out, then it will be over for me. I need him to stay nice and stable.
So far, in all the bits and pieces that I've been reading, it's all fucking normal. My only real fear is that I've had some of the mini-strokes that are possible. And since I've been quiet, I'll say why here.
1st the vertigo is always to the right.
2nd my eyesight is actually getting worse in my right eye.
3rd I can't speak worth a damn. I can form a sentence in my head and getting it from my head to my mouth is a fucking nightmare.
4th the other night, when it was bad, everytime I laid on my right side, my head felt like it was bobbing (only word I can come up to describe it). I also had some numbness that night.
Right now the pain is minimal, but the sick feeling and wonky world are there. I think that the main thing stopping me from asking my Chiro to go ahead and order me the MRI, is that I'll start to cry. I can't cry in front of people. And I cry all the fucking time! Even to commercials. "The Santa Clause 2" made me all weepy today!
I did read that sometimes migraines can cause brain damage. Especially in those who have the little strokes. I'm NOT saying that's what is happening to me. But, I AM starting to think that checking it out would be a good thing to do.
The other thing that scares me (and this is sooo stupid): I don't want to lose my hair for anything! I loved it short, I'd thought of shaving it in different times of my life. Now, it's long and UBER soft. I have thick awesome hair. It started getting long out of laziness, now I'm gonna keep it going for Locks of Love (well, if they'll take dyed hair). Even then, I don't know if I'd go that short again.
I can't sleep for shit anymore. I lay there forever waiting to sleep. I read til I feel myself drifting off, turn out the light... and I stare at the time on my ceiling (I have a kick ass clock).
Gonna give it a go anyways.